I'm not even sure what to write about this week. We've begun to
fall into the regular schedule, and seriously it kinda feels like I just
barely wrote to you! This week we have been enriched by speakers,
we've taught lessons to our investigators... and it's amazing how much
we're able to communicate with them. It's kinda funny... we've decided
that being here at the MTC at least, but probably just being a
missionary in general is like being in Tangled... "this is the BEST DAY
EVER!!!!... I can't believe I did this. I have to go back!) Not that
I'm thinking of going back at all :) because that would not be true at
all. Buuuuuut. there are so many ups and downs, but the Lord sustains
you through each and every day! Our investigators are awesome. In some
ways they are opposites... one of them practically teaches himself, and
one of them has greater needs and less understanding! It's really
interesting, and Sister Ference and I are trying with all that we've got
to teach them!! Of course... every day at the end of the day I realize
there is so much I can do better... in how I use my time, in getting
rid of my silly silly pride. In so many things... but each day I'm
grateful for the Atonement. I can kneel down and talk to Heavenly
Father, and He can help me with those things that I do that are less
than great... and that I feel like I can't always improve on my own.
I'm SO grateful for the Atonement. Haha... sometimes I just wish I
could be a perfect vessel... that I could be a person without having to
think about myself, without thinking about what anyone else thinks of
me... without thinking about anything at all! I'm working on it :) but I
also realize that Heavenly Father needs me to be myself, and He knows
how to work with imperfection! Which is definitely good for me! I
dunno. I'm not sure what to tell you about this week! It was good...
and every day I'm learning and trying to be a better missionary, and
praying and working, and then I try again the next day!
This Sunday
Sister Ference and I were called as Sister Training Leaders for our
Zone! Our Zone just got significantly smaller this week because our
phii thais (older thais) LEFT US! :) They are in THAILAND now!!! So
Sister Ference and I are called to serve 2 companionships in the room
next to us, and two sisters in our room! Hopefully we can do it! We
don't have a lot of responsibilities exactly... but we do have to look
out for each sister! And I'm praying for more love than I've ever had
before, because I want it all to come out of my heart! Sometimes I feel
like my heart is the most stubborn part of me :) Buuuuuut. Hopefully
the girls know that we're sincerely trying to serve them! Annnnd I'm
sure we'll have to pray for courage if we ever have to correct anyone! I
know that should especially be done out of love too!!! I don't know
:) Sorry family, sometimes I just don't have a lot to say! Apparently
this is one of those days! But really really this week has been good!
I'm a third of the way done with my MTC time! And I have so much more
to learn :) but I'm also anxious to get to Thailand! I had a moment
this week where I was like... hang on... I'm going to Thailand on a
mission. It's craaaaazy to think that that's really really happening.
I'm really really giving up my schooling, my everything for the Lord
right now, to go to another country and teach His children! This is SO
not something I ever exactly could imagine happening. But I also
know... that I am so BEYOND blessed to have this opportunity! I'm
scared of wasting it, and not realizing what's happening... and not
giving my all! Buuuuuut. I'm trying. And I'm trusting the Lord that
this is what He would have me do! Again the words of "I'll Go Where You
Want Me To Go" come to mind, and I'm realizing that like...
consecration and real trust in the Lord should come from the fact that
we KNOW Him and we love Him, because there is no other way that we'd
want to do that :) I have to realize that what we teach our
investigators is TRUE! I know it's true :) But... there is a Ph33n
khong prapupencaw samrab Sister Croft l3 Jared, l3 Jonathan, and
everyone! (God's plan for Sister Croft... and for Jared and Jonathan
and everyone!!!) :) And it's amazing. I wish I had more to say :) But
the time has gone by fairly fast this week :) and I don't know what else
to tell ya!
Seete rag khuun mag mag mag mag mag. I love you a LOT (lot lot lot lot lot!)
The gospel is TRUE!!!
Sister Croft
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