How Great Thou Art

Oh wow, oh wow!  Dearest family, do you realize that you will only receive 1 more email from me... and then.  I.  Will.  Be. In. Thailand.  Yeah.  That is absolutely insane!  I feel somewhat like I'm suffering from whiplash.  Like... the announcement in October happened... and suddenly I'm here... I've just spent a summer learning Thai... and now... as an inexperienced little child :)  I'm going to fly to another country to tell people that this is the true and restored gospel!  INSANE!  But perfect and exciting and wonderful.  I don't even know how to describe it to you!  We have 12 days left... and guess what?  Every day we have ONE LESS DAY TO GO!!! :)  I received an email from my mission president telling me to have such and such money on hand... and I just can't even imagine what is in store for me!  But.  I am THRILLED!!!!! :) AHHH.

Anyway.  This week was a good one.  Honestly... if I ever have difficult it's moments because... I'm SO imperfect.  And sometimes Satan knows how to make me nervous about that!  I get to the end of the day and wonder if I gave all I could!  Because I'm sure there were minutes that I could've spent better.  And I'm NOT thoroughly exhausted or frustrated! :)  Haha... maybe I'm just a crazy kid.  Nope.  I am 100% sure I am a crazy kid.  Buuuuuut.  I just hope I'm giving my all to the Lord.  I also have moments when the Lord confirms to me that He knows how to get rid of my weaknesses, which are many.  But.  I just have to try the best that I can!  :)  Haha.  That's the part that gets me.  Because it's impossible to have a perfect day. :)  It feels like how people must feel after a race... (yeah... I've never run one!) But... a race where you don't feel QUITE satisfied at the end of it :).  But also.  It is SO good.  Don't worry that I'm like... depressed or anything!  Haha... I just want to give my WHOLE HEART TO the Lord.  And I'm learning how to do that... and having a chance to ask the Lord for a lot of help and forgiveness along the way!

The blessings continue to come.  I honestly feel like... if I have one more blessing.  I'll just explode.  See... the illustration that I put in a letter and then took a picture of.  That's my cup... and honestly.  There is no more room in it.  There hasn't been for a long time.  And blessings are spilled all over the floor :)  It's a huge mess!! :) I can't even imagine what I could've done to be here on the earth, to be in the family that I'm in, to be going to the mission that I'm in.  Pluuuus.  A huge blessing from this week.  I for some reason have the nerve to ask for even more blessings!  I asked Heavenly Father if maybe we could go to the temple one more time!  And He gave us the assignment to go clean the temple.  Wow.  It was an awesome morning this morning.  The sisters in my district got to clean some of the chandeliers in the celestial room.  It was so beyond beautiful in there.  So beautiful.  And I may or may not have shed a few tears... because this gospel is so beautiful.  So eternal.  And so perfect.  Heavenly Father offers us even more blessings.  Even more than I have today.  He offers us eternal life!  And that is SO beautiful.  It was a little unfair too... because we got to clean in there (while the Elders scrubbed lockers... because they won't let the Elders touch the crystals... which P.S. I found out there are like... over 100 chandeliers in the Provo temple!) and then we got a tour of some parts of the temple.  We saw the beautiful brides room.  Some of the construction they're doing.  And we sat in the chapel.  It was beautiful and wonderful.  I can't even tell you!  Blesssssings galore.

Also.  Last night we had an awesome devotional.  And I was again reminded of the power of the Atonement.  It is the way through which we can return to Heavenly Father... in every way.  It enables to endure, it allows us to be forgiven.  It is so perfect.  And I hope more than anything that I'm letting it change me.  That I'm learning to rely on my Savior when my own weaknesses are too much!  Which is always :)  But.  I have GREAT faith that Heavenly Father will allow me to communicate with people even though I can't speak Thai.  I have faith that I'll be safe in a place that can be kind of dangerous.  I have faith that the Atonement is real.  And when I think about it... it just makes me want to burst into song sometimes! :)  Hehe... can you tell I love the hymns? "Then sings my soul, My Savior, God, to Thee.  How great Thou art.  How great Thou art!

Have an incredible week my dear khrab khrua (family)!  You are wonderful examples.  And I love each of you so so much!  :)
The other picture on here... is of a bunch of words in my notebook that all sound really similar.  Many lovely options for what I can accidentally mess up on in a lesson.  Can I please... rice.  Oh... I mean enter.  :)  Or the word beautiful.  Suay.  Or with a different tone.  Unfortunate.  Or with a different tone... an apparently very unfortunate word!  Ahhhh :) Fun with Thai!

Also.  Our investigators are still both progressing towards baptism! :)  Hooray :)  We're gonna try to get another investigator this week :)  Which is hard at the MTC.  But also in the field :) 

Anyway.

That's all :)

Gap khwaamrag mag mag mag, (with a LOT OF LOVE!)

Sister Croft